Saturday, January 2, 2010

Overcoming fear

I was telling someone the other day that for me to say, "We are adopting Meggie" is one really scary thing to do. I guess the biggest reason for this emotion would be a lack of confidence on my part. Not a lack of confidence in that we should adopt her. But a lack of confidence in getting the money to adopt her. I am 100% sure that God wants me to do this. How can I be so sure? I asked for a sign and I got one. So with that prayer answered, I just need to have faith that since this is God's will He will make it happen.
Now listen this is the most important part. My LACK of faith in raising the money DOES NOT determine whether God will provide it or not. If it is His will and I have accepted that and turned it over to Him then it is in His hands and He will do it. Praise You Lord!
So if you have prayed for something and He has given you the answer, have FAITH! Get excited and shout it from the roof tops because He will bring it about.
We are getting Meggie today and going to Bass Pro Shop and then the book store. I will tell you that when we are with her, I can't stop looking at her. My heart aches that she will be going back to Latvia while we or rather God raises the funds to bring her here. Oh how I wish there wasn't such a language barrier. I have so many questions. I want to know everything in her life for the past 9 years. Did you feel loved? Were you hugged very much? What is your greatest fear? What do you remember about your parents? Did you ever know your dad? So many questions. Maybe it's because I am a guy and I just want to fix everything. I think most of all I want to give her something that she has never had. Security. Have a great day y'all.

1 comment:

  1. What an exciting time! I just got caught up on the whole adoption that you are going through. I will be praying for funds. God will provide, if He has called you to this, then He will provide. You are both amazing parents and this little girl is already being blessed by you. Love you both!